Returning to Yourself After Chaos
March was heavy…
The month started off heavy, and I couldn’t fully understand why I was feeling so off. Then on March 10th, I received a call that my father had been found unconscious…and about an hour later, he was pronounced dead.
I dropped everything and traveled to California.
I had plans that same upcoming weekend to take my spiritual journey to the next level…something I had been waiting on for quite some time and had invested a lot into. Unfortunately, that moment didn’t happen, and that loss came with its own weight too.
When I returned home a few days later, life didn’t pause. It kept going.
I was grieving.
Trying to figure out the paperwork for my father.
Dealing with family conflict and emotions.
Still showing up for my children.
Still holding responsibility for my business and work.
It was a lot.
I didn’t physically go back to my suite for two weeks. Every day felt like constant chaos, and I didn’t want to bring that energy into a space I had intentionally created to be peaceful.
Even from a distance, I still showed up the best I could. I promoted my class, I held on, and I returned when I felt a little more grounded.
Chaos ruled my life for most of this month…but in these last few days, I felt a shift. I could feel the energy lift.
Grief has a way of bringing up old wounds, and I had to face and release parts of myself that were still hurting in order to move toward a brighter space.
When I finally stepped back into my suite, it felt calm… peaceful… almost like I was being welcomed back with open arms.
I had poured so much intention into that space, and I was honestly amazed to walk back into the same beautiful energy I had left.
In that moment, I realized something powerful…
Even after everything I went through…
The space I created still held me.
My intentions were still there. Still working. Still present.
March didn’t require me to force growth.
Instead, it reminded me that intention matters.
My space is sacred…even when it isn’t busy.
I leaned on the only tools I had.
I created space for myself, even if it was just two minutes out of the day.
I used water to cleanse, calm, and ground my energy.
These same tools…candles, incense, aura mists, teas, and tinctures…are all available through Cyan Candle Co., and they are powerful supports when navigating grief, heavy energy, and emotional pain.
After all, this is how Cyan Candle Co. was born… through grief, through healing, through creating space for myself.
April will be about gentle movement, deeper alignment, and continued growth.
Let’s grow.
— Mya
Cyan Candle Co.
