🌑 From Grief to Grit: The Rebirth of Cyan Candle Co.

We just came out of eclipse season, and the energy has been thick and wavy. With this New Moon in Libra, things feel a little calmer…or maybe my tolerance has grown stronger. Either way, I feel fresh energy brewing, especially around my business, Cyan Candle Co.

Cyan Candle Co. doesn’t carry the same energy it did when it began. Back in 2020, the business transitioned from Candlelishes Flames into what it is today…a reflection of healing, transformation, and purpose. But before it was a business, it was therapy.

🕯 How It All Began

Cyan Candle Co. was born from grief after losing my mother in 2018. She was my rock, and her passing was one of the hardest experiences of my life. At the time, I was a single mother of four, including a newborn, a 14-month-old, a pre-teen deeply affected by the loss, and my niece…a child with multiple physical, mental, and cognitive disabilities whom I took in when her parents could not keep her safe.

Balancing full-time work, motherhood, and grief was heavy. I thought I had processed her death, but in 2020…when the world shut down and life slowed to a standstill…it finally hit me.

While trying to keep my children occupied during lockdown, I rediscovered an old memory of making candles with my mom. That memory became my lifeline.

At first, I struggled with wax types and methods until I discovered coconut wax…and instantly fell in love. What I didn’t realize then was how much coconut would come to mean to me, not just as a material, but from an energetic and ancestral standpoint.

In many traditions, the coconut is sacred…symbolizing purity, protection, cleansing, and connection to spirit. Over time, I began to see that the same element flowing through my candles also flowed through me. The benefits and spiritual connection of the coconut carried meaning in my lineage and became another thread tying me back to my roots.

Each candle I poured became part of my healing. The process was meditative. I cried, laughed, and released emotions I didn’t know I was still holding. Through the wax, the wicks, and the fragrance, I was reconnecting with my mother and with myself.

That’s how Cyan Candle Co. was born…through healing, intention, and love.

The Shift From Career to Calling

As time went on, my brand grew. I began taking my candles into the community, and seeing people smile as they shared the memories my scents awakened filled my heart. But behind the scenes, life was still demanding.

By 2024, I was working as a school counselor, a job I truly loved…but my health began to decline. High blood pressure, ER visits, exhaustion…it became clear that something had to change. I was overextended, in an unhealthy relationship, and losing myself in the process.

I began exploring herbs and roots, seeking natural ways to heal my body and spirit. That curiosity blossomed into a passion. Around the same time, I took a leap and opened a storefront: Cyan Candle Co. & The Alignment.

It was a space meant to bring people together…to build community and share light. And for a while, it was beautiful. But I quickly learned that not everyone operates from love and light. In the spiritual world, light attracts both admiration and shadow.

🌙 Lessons in Boundaries and Energy

I’ve always been a giver…the person who helps, connects, and uplifts others. But I rarely gave myself the same grace. Entering the spiritual community without strong boundaries was an eye-opening experience. I met amazing souls…and some who taught hard lessons.

I eventually relocated my store to a more spacious and beautiful location, full of potential. Yet despite the beauty, the energy around the space began to shift. I tried everything to rebalance it, but my spirit was telling me it was time to let go.

Closing the storefront wasn’t a failure…it was a spiritual release. It was the moment I realized I had to stop trying to fix everything externally and start healing internally.

🔥 The Breakdown Before the Breakthrough

By January 2025, I hit a breaking point. My relationship had ended just a few months earlier, I lost my vehicle, my home, and parts of myself. My connection with my children was strained. It felt like everything was collapsing.

But when I finally surrendered, when I let go of what was no longer aligned, it was like a heavy brick lifted off my shoulders. My healing deepened. I began rebuilding…slowly, intentionally, and with faith.

Then came eclipse season again…more lessons, more waves. And now, under this New Moon, I can finally breathe again. My creativity is returning. My connection to Cyan Candle Co. feels alive again.

What’s Next for Cyan Candle Co.

Cyan Candle Co. is evolving. What started as a way to process grief has become a brand built from grit…from purpose, gratitude, and divine alignment.

I am reconnecting with the heart of my work: healing through candles, herbs, and energy. I’m rebuilding Cyan Candle Co. as an online platform, with new offerings that reflect my growth.

Today, I am not only a candle maker…I am a practitioner.

• A Certified Herbalist with a deep love for herbs and roots.

• An intuitive card reader, offering readings that combine energy, spirit, and inner guidance.

• A spiritual counselor drawing on 18 years in social work and counseling to help others heal through life’s transitions.

• A guide and teacher, hosting Healing Through Candle workshops that blend intention, affirmation, and meditation.

• A meditation leader, helping others find peace, stillness, and connection.

• And beyond that, a lifelong student of the spiritual arts…always learning, growing, and refining my gifts, even those I don’t yet fully utilize.

Being adopted and not knowing my lineage has made me even more determined to connect with my Ori (my higher self) and my ancestors. Each day, I learn more about where I come from and why I’m here.

🌕 The New Chapter

As we approach 2026, Cyan Candle Co. is stepping into a new vibration…one of resilience, purpose, and authenticity.
Our products remain high-quality and intentionally crafted, but our why has expanded. We are here to inspire, to heal, and to remind others of their own light…no matter how dark the journey gets.

Cyan Candle Co. is no longer built from grief.
It’s built from grit.
From gratitude.
From growth.

And this is just the beginning. 💙